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give me love!
Pomegranate's Mind.
torawhore is my name too!
16 November 2009 @ 06:49 am
ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!
happy04 November 2009 @ 03:12 am
Dear Life,
Oh how you love to kick me even when I am at my lowest of lows. God I fucking love you. You love to tear me down and beat me until I can barely claim to be a live. I fucking don't understand you and your crazy things you throw at me. Is it not enough that you have taken my family and some friends NOW you wanna take the place I call home. Do you not have anyone else to bug? hmm is just fucking shit on me all day.. than when my mother comes home have her if a fucked up mood where everything is my fault?? Seriously.. how is this fucking fair.. and yes Life I know you are not considered to be fair.. but how is it right that some people never have to struggle but I get to struggle to stay alive and stay away and stay me and to stay SANE!! Which Life I am on the verge of not even being a live. I hate this struggle.. I am so broken and so battered by you and the world. That this bright shinning light is fading fast.... Fading so fast that I do not even realize how much time I can truly have left. I miss the way I use to smile 24/7 now I smile with this under lying hate towards some things. I hate waking up in the morning knowing this day will be the same as the last. And that I will yet again have to wear this fake smile for the world to see. Why LIFE?? Why are you so cruel to some yet leave some never touched by your hardness your cruelty. Life you are like a school bully that I could never defeat that I could never win against. Can it never be enough for you? I am plagued with no sleep, I am haunted by this reoccurring thoughts.. I cannot sleep anymore.. I can barely eat. I can barely breathe with out feeling pain.. My head hurts 80% of the time that I am awake. When I sleep I toss and turn worse than a raging sea. When I am awake my heart races like a race car. My head pounds like the drums of the opening Olympics. So life riddle me this why?? Why cannot just go one day with out some news that could hurt me.. or that kill me for that fact. My BP is most likely through the roof, which is so wonderful for my health as is. BECAUSE I AM ALWAYS FUCKING SICK ANYMORE!!! Which I would like to let you know life is bull fucking shit. Have you not already eat my soul, broke my will, defeated me enough? YOU WON!! My god Life you succeeded at winning. Killing me. I am broken. Granted I know you Life I know your sick twisted game. I know this all fate and I will deal with even more defeat in my lifetime even more loss.. even more pain. And i know when I am about to break again and again you will send someone my way to rise me higher than I was before but moments later you will just tear me down again. But that is fine.. because I can wear my fake smile well these days. I will go own fooling the world just like you fool me every-time. Life you and I have this beautiful love hate relationship. It will never change until the day that I die. But this is something that I have come to live with. Because like many have said before me I cannot shut life off nor can I quit you. You are what you are. Though most days I wish you were a real person so I could inflect pain on you like you have me my whole life. Oh well.. I guess this will always happen. That is fine... *sigh* I am just going to go on with life and live you to the fullest even though I am not sure where you are going to take me next or who I shall I meet next or what I will even do for a living. But I know that you will not kill me until it is my time. When my life is over I will hope this world remembers me for who I was not what I did. I know I have fucked up a lot, I know I have down a lot of good too. I am only one person. With a giant heart, eyes that shine when a real smile touches her lips, hands that are soft, legs that are strong, and a heart that keeps on beating no matter what you throw my way. I will be stronger during this trying times.. since that is all I can do. I am only 18 soon to be 19 wow that is only 12 days away.. Less than two weeks and I will be old. ha. I am going to do whatever.
So I guess this letter to you life is to show you even though you have won these battles.. Battles after battles.. I am going to remain this undying human. Because that is what I do. I smile and move on even though sometimes it is hard. I just pray that you do not beat me so much today. I am sick and wore out. and I can no longer sleep a good night rest with you abusing me. So just stop for awhile.. at least until next year. I have been working hard to change my life for the better. Hanging out with more people, talking to better people, being a girl with a carefree out look... Just LIFE please give me a break. My family is struggling and I am barely holding on to my sanity so I would really love it if you could cut me some slack. I am going to try and remember my own words, and the words of those who care about me. Of those who help me smile of those who make me get up and give me strength. Because I am weak at times life and when I say I really done I know my friend will never let me truly give up. Just understand life, I am never truly giving up, I will make this happiness my own. SO simmer down on me and stop trying to break me.
Sincerely,
Pomegranate Shiroyama
Oh how you love to kick me even when I am at my lowest of lows. God I fucking love you. You love to tear me down and beat me until I can barely claim to be a live. I fucking don't understand you and your crazy things you throw at me. Is it not enough that you have taken my family and some friends NOW you wanna take the place I call home. Do you not have anyone else to bug? hmm is just fucking shit on me all day.. than when my mother comes home have her if a fucked up mood where everything is my fault?? Seriously.. how is this fucking fair.. and yes Life I know you are not considered to be fair.. but how is it right that some people never have to struggle but I get to struggle to stay alive and stay away and stay me and to stay SANE!! Which Life I am on the verge of not even being a live. I hate this struggle.. I am so broken and so battered by you and the world. That this bright shinning light is fading fast.... Fading so fast that I do not even realize how much time I can truly have left. I miss the way I use to smile 24/7 now I smile with this under lying hate towards some things. I hate waking up in the morning knowing this day will be the same as the last. And that I will yet again have to wear this fake smile for the world to see. Why LIFE?? Why are you so cruel to some yet leave some never touched by your hardness your cruelty. Life you are like a school bully that I could never defeat that I could never win against. Can it never be enough for you? I am plagued with no sleep, I am haunted by this reoccurring thoughts.. I cannot sleep anymore.. I can barely eat. I can barely breathe with out feeling pain.. My head hurts 80% of the time that I am awake. When I sleep I toss and turn worse than a raging sea. When I am awake my heart races like a race car. My head pounds like the drums of the opening Olympics. So life riddle me this why?? Why cannot just go one day with out some news that could hurt me.. or that kill me for that fact. My BP is most likely through the roof, which is so wonderful for my health as is. BECAUSE I AM ALWAYS FUCKING SICK ANYMORE!!! Which I would like to let you know life is bull fucking shit. Have you not already eat my soul, broke my will, defeated me enough? YOU WON!! My god Life you succeeded at winning. Killing me. I am broken. Granted I know you Life I know your sick twisted game. I know this all fate and I will deal with even more defeat in my lifetime even more loss.. even more pain. And i know when I am about to break again and again you will send someone my way to rise me higher than I was before but moments later you will just tear me down again. But that is fine.. because I can wear my fake smile well these days. I will go own fooling the world just like you fool me every-time. Life you and I have this beautiful love hate relationship. It will never change until the day that I die. But this is something that I have come to live with. Because like many have said before me I cannot shut life off nor can I quit you. You are what you are. Though most days I wish you were a real person so I could inflect pain on you like you have me my whole life. Oh well.. I guess this will always happen. That is fine... *sigh* I am just going to go on with life and live you to the fullest even though I am not sure where you are going to take me next or who I shall I meet next or what I will even do for a living. But I know that you will not kill me until it is my time. When my life is over I will hope this world remembers me for who I was not what I did. I know I have fucked up a lot, I know I have down a lot of good too. I am only one person. With a giant heart, eyes that shine when a real smile touches her lips, hands that are soft, legs that are strong, and a heart that keeps on beating no matter what you throw my way. I will be stronger during this trying times.. since that is all I can do. I am only 18 soon to be 19 wow that is only 12 days away.. Less than two weeks and I will be old. ha. I am going to do whatever.
So I guess this letter to you life is to show you even though you have won these battles.. Battles after battles.. I am going to remain this undying human. Because that is what I do. I smile and move on even though sometimes it is hard. I just pray that you do not beat me so much today. I am sick and wore out. and I can no longer sleep a good night rest with you abusing me. So just stop for awhile.. at least until next year. I have been working hard to change my life for the better. Hanging out with more people, talking to better people, being a girl with a carefree out look... Just LIFE please give me a break. My family is struggling and I am barely holding on to my sanity so I would really love it if you could cut me some slack. I am going to try and remember my own words, and the words of those who care about me. Of those who help me smile of those who make me get up and give me strength. Because I am weak at times life and when I say I really done I know my friend will never let me truly give up. Just understand life, I am never truly giving up, I will make this happiness my own. SO simmer down on me and stop trying to break me.
Sincerely,
Pomegranate Shiroyama
aggravated29 October 2009 @ 03:36 am
Anyone who wants to stay friends with me should really comment this because one of two things is going to happen.
I doubt I will post here anymore..
or I am going to delete it.
because well really no one talks on here anymore..
and I know it goes both ways and I don't comment as much as I use too..
but if anyone misses me or whatever let me know..
I just figure no one overly cares about this anymore..
~Pomme-chan~
does anyone even know anything about me.
I doubt I will post here anymore..
or I am going to delete it.
because well really no one talks on here anymore..
and I know it goes both ways and I don't comment as much as I use too..
but if anyone misses me or whatever let me know..
I just figure no one overly cares about this anymore..
~Pomme-chan~
does anyone even know anything about me.
26 October 2009 @ 02:42 am
I actually have not spoken to four of my uncles for saying that because I was bi that I should burn in hell granted they do not know I am bi but they said it.. Non the less it hurt me. And they said because I love asian men and do find them way more attractive than I do caucasians that I was not a good person and that they would not claim my children if I married one.. SO I said to them go fuck yourselves. And i have no talked to them. I am my own person and I do not need to be treated like a fucking bitch or dog because I am who I am.
chipper14 September 2009 @ 12:02 pm
Jaebum from 2PM.
He is an amazing singer and an even better dancer.
He has such skill.
He is brilliant at what he does.
2PM could not have a better leader.
But he is a victim of hate.
They released his personal convo with his friend.
FOUR years ago.
People need to seriously grow up.
he is 22 years old.
He trained for FOUR years.
and it took FOUR days to destory is dream.
My question to the selfish bastards are you happy now..
He is 22 years old and he had to go home to his mother.
Who held him why he repeatedly said sorry and I love you and cried.
I fucking hate people who do this shit.
When one person makes a mistake so what he said he hated Korea and wanted to go home.
He was 18, and scared.
The first time he had been that far away from his family.
My fucking god give him a break.
JESUS!
LET HIM COME BACK!
We all need him.
I love him.
~Pomme~
He is an amazing singer and an even better dancer.
He has such skill.
He is brilliant at what he does.
2PM could not have a better leader.
But he is a victim of hate.
They released his personal convo with his friend.
FOUR years ago.
People need to seriously grow up.
he is 22 years old.
He trained for FOUR years.
and it took FOUR days to destory is dream.
My question to the selfish bastards are you happy now..
He is 22 years old and he had to go home to his mother.
Who held him why he repeatedly said sorry and I love you and cried.
I fucking hate people who do this shit.
When one person makes a mistake so what he said he hated Korea and wanted to go home.
He was 18, and scared.
The first time he had been that far away from his family.
My fucking god give him a break.
JESUS!
LET HIM COME BACK!
We all need him.
I love him.
~Pomme~
sad13 September 2009 @ 02:29 am
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08 September 2009 @ 01:35 am
THEY ARE MAKING JAY PARK QUIT 2PM..
I AM STILL CRYING ABOUT IT.
www.allkpop.com/index.php/full_story/2pm
CHECK IT OUT.
~Pomme~
I AM STILL CRYING ABOUT IT.
www.allkpop.com/index.php/full_story/2pm
CHECK IT OUT.
~Pomme~
06 September 2009 @ 12:24 am
Pomme is alive and well.
just sleep. night world. <3
love you all <3
just sleep. night world. <3
love you all <3
sleepy20 August 2009 @ 11:33 pm
So I am going to keep my smile on.
Because well fuck people who do not love me for me..
Who do not care about me for me..
Not who I talk to...
Because well fuck people who do not love me for me..
Who do not care about me for me..
Not who I talk to...
Judge me for me:
Not what I wear,
My hair color,
My eyes,
Judge me for the person I am.
Not what I wear,
My hair color,
My eyes,
Judge me for the person I am.
The person that wakes up in the morning who thinks I should smile to make others happy.
The person who goes out of her way to make others smile because it makes her smile to..
But do not judge me on how I feel about issues,
Or who I speak with
Or what I wanna do with my life.
Because everything about me is me you either love me or do not speak with me.
The person who goes out of her way to make others smile because it makes her smile to..
But do not judge me on how I feel about issues,
Or who I speak with
Or what I wanna do with my life.
Because everything about me is me you either love me or do not speak with me.
I will fuck up.
I will hurt people.
I will feel bad
and make it up to them
but I also do a lot of good in this world.
I make others happy
I speak with my heart.
I am me.
I am not going to be that precious doll that breaks anymore.
I am not going to be that precious doll that breaks anymore.
To be strong is to be weak. To love is to hate.. To be heartbroken is to feel..
I am weak.. I know this.. but I can be strong.
I love but that is only because I have lost.
I smile because I know I can do great things.
I laugh because I know I can make it
I walk with pride because I know me..
I am proud because I try.
~Pomegranate~
~Pomegranate~
cheerful20 August 2009 @ 10:36 pm
So little Pomme.. is slightly pissed off but since I let the world know my feelings apparently.
I will not say anymore.
~Pomme~
the song is because I have a girl crush on the one with the shortest hair.
bitchy18 August 2009 @ 10:12 am
Isn't he the hotness.
Plus his new album called Heartbreaker is so fucking epic!
He has lots of people on it.
CL from 2ne1, Teddy from 1tym
EPIC!
LOVE YOU ALL PEACE!
~Pomme~
12 August 2009 @ 10:49 pm
from the accident, I have a neck injury (cannot turn my neck),minor scrapes and abrasions (arms, and head), Contusions (deep bruises on my legs, back, side, and arms), Elbow Injury (I hit it really fucking hard). It is hard to walk.. I feel better sitting in a chair. But I have to lay down to sleep. and they told me to walk some but I am not leaving my house until Sat. maybe..and I never ever wanna drive again.
~Pomme~
~Pomme~
annoyed12 August 2009 @ 04:22 pm
Tuesady August 11 at 9:14pm.
I was in a car accident. I went 30 feet down a valley.
I am okay just shook up and in a lot of pain.
Everything really does hurt.. no joke.
but other than that I am okay.
Just really sore.
Love You all.
~Pomme~
I was in a car accident. I went 30 feet down a valley.
I am okay just shook up and in a lot of pain.
Everything really does hurt.. no joke.
but other than that I am okay.
Just really sore.
Love You all.
~Pomme~
moody10 August 2009 @ 03:40 am
This was written like a while back but now I give this to those who are morning the loss of Jasmine You. He was a great artist and he will be terribly missed.
<3
Much love to his family.
Rest In Peace.
Time.
<3
Much love to his family.
Rest In Peace.
Time.
It is a word, just a word right.
But it means so much.
It is a four letter word that can some up so much.
Time is the key to life.
Just think about it.
It is not love, or who you are with.
But how you spend your time.
How you live your time.
There is only so much time.
There are 60 seconds in a min, 60min in a hour, 24 hours in a day, 365 days in a year.
But I cannot tell you how many years there are in a life time.
Because even as smart as you are or how much you think you know.
You will never know how much time you have on this earth.
Some say this is hell, some say that they are glad to be here.
It makes me think more.
If they are glad then why do they worry how much time they have.
I do that a lot.
I worry about death.
Which I guess is a silly think but I cannot help but to worry.
I am 18 and yet I worry about my death.
I guess I am stupid to do so.
But there is so much I want to do.
I dream big.
I hope for the best
And since last night I am going to have faith.
Faith is more important then a lot of things.
I am going to have faith in the time I have left.
I do not know how long that will be.
Maybe 60 seconds, maybe 60 minutes, maybe 24 hours, maybe 365 days.
Who knows,. I do not know nor do I want to.
I am going to go on with this thing called life.
It is also a four a letter word.
Yet it describes every person.
Life and time are four letter words that are forever to be together.
heart broken08 August 2009 @ 10:48 pm
Dear Life,
Do you even understand how you can break a person in one day.
How you can make someone so useless.
And underappreciated. DO YOU?
Do you know how it feels so have your heart ripped from your chest.
Or how it feels to have someone hate you so much.
Do you know how it feels, when people you love change or just leave you.
Or when music has become your best friend because it does not judge you or hurt you.
Do you know how my heart aches for acceptance most likely something I will never ever receive.
Or when someone starts to take small jabs at you because of who you are.
Do you understand the way I feel?
Most likely not.
You are hateful thing.
A curse.
And I hate you.
I hate how you can just make cry at everything.
Or how you toy with my emotions.
Damn it I am human.
I am not something you can replace.
There will never be another me.
Yet I doubt the world will ever understand how..
I am on the edge.
Breaking in two.
I am already cracked.
Something that is not going away.
I am scared to admit.
That I think I may just give up.
I am useless anyways.
Why hate someone with a heart.
A heart that bleeds for everyone.
A heart that wants to change the world
A heart that cares to much.
A people please yea that is what I am but I fail at it
*sigh*
Maybe I am over reacting about everything.
Maybe I should just shut up.
But why hide this feeling that is eating me up?
Hmm.
Makes no sense to hide it.
So now I will let my eyes close soon.
And see how the world will embrace someone like me.
I am me.
I am not changing.
I will not change for you.
So do not ask.
I am trying to accept myself.
I am not going to give up yet.
I wanna fight this.
And I wanna win.
~Pomme~
07 August 2009 @ 06:24 am
I wear bracelets everyday.
I love who I am.
I live with my mum and sister
now you can all guess
~Pomme~
I love who I am.
I live with my mum and sister
now you can all guess
~Pomme~
Current Music: Second Chance by ShineDown
06 August 2009 @ 04:20 am
wow does anyone miss me?
haha
I keep forgeting about this silly thing.
well anyways.
love to ever reads this.
~Pomme~
haha
I keep forgeting about this silly thing.
well anyways.
love to ever reads this.
~Pomme~
awake29 July 2009 @ 10:46 pm
A sweet baby girl, born at 4:40pm, July 29, 2009. 6.8 pounds!
CONGRATS MIYAVI AND MELODY!! I AM SO HAP
~Pomme~
CONGRATS MIYAVI AND MELODY!! I AM SO HAP
~Pomme~
Current Mood: 
anxious
anxiousCurrent Music: Stupid Boy by Keith Urban